Quarter Life Crisis & John Mayer LyricsPosted: February 11, 2008
John Mayer once sang, “I wish my life was more like 1983.” I was born that year.
It’s hard to sum up a quarter of your life, especially when you’re not one to remember much anyways. I feel like “most my memories have escaped me or confused themselves within a dream” It’s not to say that my life has been mundane by the least, but really… it’s all just a blur now (at least the last 15 years have been) There’s some clarity at the end of the tunnel though, right around elementary school. And it always seems like when I think of my past, I can only see this part with any certainty, and I always beg the question, “whatever happened to my, whatever happened to my, whatever happened to my lunchbox? when came the day that it got thrown away and don’t you think I should have had some say in that decision?” They were days of innocence, when life was simpler and the toughest decision was what you could trade your fruit roll up for during lunch time. And when was it decided for me that I no longer wanted to live life so simply? I don’t think I ever told anyone I wanted to grow up, but I guess I did anyway. It’d be nice if we all had some say…wouldn’t it?
But enough reflecting on the past. What’s of my present? I really can’t complain. God is totally and unreasonably faithful to me. It’s ridiculous how much grace He shows me, because if anyone’s been a screw up, it’s me. Yet, the King took this fool and handed me the keys to His court & appointed me to the high position of His ambassador. But as I come to the crossroads of young adulthood, serving God in the ways I believe He’s called me to serve, I can’t help to think, “It might be a quarter life crisis or just the stirring in my soul. Either way, I wonder sometimes about the outcome of a still verdictless life. Am I living it right?” Am I living the life God’s calling me to live? Am I doing it with enough of my might? Am I reaching my greatest potential? Ultimately, am I pleasing to Him?
All I know is that I want to live for only one man’s verdict. As I now tackle the 2nd quarter of my life, I want this quarter to be marked with faithfulness to one God & one Purpose. I want only to give my efforts into doing the will of God, and where there is an opportunity to build God’s kingdom, I want to be the first in line. I want “to live with all my might, while I do live.” as Jonathan Edwards first penned. I want to be counted amongst the “good and faithful servants”. For those are the only words I desire to hear at the end of my life. I don’t want an award, I don’t want a monument, or scores of books written after my passing, but I merely want to hear the words, “Well done, good and faithful servant.” That’s the verdict that really matters.
Eric Butterworth, “Don’t go through life, grow through life.”